Monday, April 30, 2007
Ha ha .... Never write again for a few days but never mind la ... ha ha ......
YAY today is Monday and tml is tuesday which is a holiday... YAY no school no school ....... Finally, man .... I dun feel like going school, like today i come here and like do nothing de.... Cos maybe bubbles never come then i feel lonely plus my project, there's is some error like i dun knoe how to slove or debug... So headache ......
I dun knoe la ... Recently have disputes with my family member and like having a cold war between me and that family member... I dun know wad to say to her... realli... I cant stand it liaoz...
That y i have like no mood to come school and all that... It started last week and then til now.... Last Sat we actucally wanted to go out de... Everyone like say.. ok ok lor ... then in the end also never go liaoz.... I dun know why la ... Later they got this then cannot go .... Never mind about that la....
Sometimes ah.. I feel like v.outcast .. I also dun know why lehz... Like i am not apart of the family. The truth is my family is closer to my sister then me ... Sometimes i dun feel like thinking about all this feelings but sometimes when i am alone in the house i cant help thinking about all this types of feeling... The house is so empty now... Last time when my grandma was alive, it was more lively as my aunt would come over and cook and all that but now .... It so empty, plus my mum comes home late. My dad doesn't come home til like 4-5 in the morning as he working night shift. I hardly interact with them, especially after the dispute i have with my mum.
The one i can talk to is my sister only, and sometimes she finds me annoying so i will just shut my door in the room .... Recently, i have been watching my anime til like midnight 1-2 then i sleep... I dun know why, but i just wanna make myself tired so that i can sleep.... But when i come school, i will have diffcultly trying to be awake and always fall asleep... Tooo tired ... And also i think i today got bad mood... Dun know why so angry @ some things....
And dun realli feel like talking also... i also dun know why... But must try la ... Try to be more happy and dun think of things that only make me troubled...
Maybe later will meet bubbles and go with her to the driving school to book her practical lessons...
最近、私の生きてるの意味はない。私と家族の関係はぼろぼろです。
立夏～ Ritsuka~
Romanced @1:04 PM
