Tuesday, May 15, 2007
HAIZZ. SO SIANZ. Last time i tot that FYPJ was still okie and all that but now NO. I think hor, when we are stuck that time is so sianz lor. Nothing to do and wait for the forum ppl to reply and today WORST. My teacher never come, more sianz. I dun know why he take leave for this 2 days and also i have already sms him about i having problems but ah he never reply back yet. I dun know what time will he reply back. I am feeling so sick and tired of this project realli. I am so tired already. I dun know why. So tired. And i feel like giving up. But i know the teacher wun let us de. He wan us to die die come out with this thing. Or we will fail. T_T. WHY is the FYPJ so strict and i dun understand how they group the people into the different project groups and which areas they are focusing on. I realli feel unfair. I am those quite weak in coding de and they just send me to some hard project and see us die there. I think is quite unfair. And some ppl are send to easy and relax project or something they are familiar with, i think they can do better than us and i think is DAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM UNFAIR.
この世界は不平等です、何でかれら安らうの人生。何で私の人生は苦心ですか？解からない！！
何で．．．この人生生きてるの意味じゃない。何で私の人生あの不幸ですか。何でだや… 彼らの人生は幸せなのに。何で私の人生は幸せなの？
自分は嫌い、自分の人生は嫌い、このブスの私嫌い、自信じゃない。
So tired already. So so so so so tired. Wanna go home. I dun wanna come to school anymore. I also dun know why but just got those depressing feelings in me. And also abit EMO. Dun wanna talk to anyone, feel like killing myself... And just die off quietly with no one knowing. This world is still moving when my time have just stop there forever. Wanna stay in a quiet and peaceful place without any troubles/woes. I onli wanna to spend the happy times forever and ever. Dun wanna let ppl know where i am. Stay @ home and dun go out forever. Just wanna go away from ppl @ outside world because they are competitive and i dun wanna get their competitive the feeling into myself. Or i will become one of them, wanna relax somewhere which have the natural scenes that will be always there, no war, no ppl get hurt in realtionship or even a world just with love among everyone. No just their loved ones. And also a world that ppl wun die or even if they die, their family wun miss them and let it go. A world with no tears of saddness, only tears of happiness will exists here.
Sorry, just nothing to do wanna just write out wan i thinking... Just so sianz lor. sorry never blog for that fews day. dun feel like writing down. I have no mood to write also about wad happen these few days. I am so tired that i will lose my memory for a while and then i regain it later. Bit and peices of my memory fragments are missing in my brain. I dun know where they go. i cant even remember when is the last time i blog this blog. Sometimes cant remember hu are the ppl who talk to me and also forget their names. Okie end here or will KILL more brain cells thinking of things here and there. Bye~
立夏～Ｒｉｔｓｕｋａ～
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